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I kind of want to break windows and glasses and electronics and expensive things. I just don’t know where to channel all these emotions. And its all because of Will Blakely in The Last Song. Good lord Amanda pull it together

Dumped him at prom, I know I’m such a bitch but now I have a lot less to worry about. Fuck I love being single. I mean I like knowing that I can hookup with any cute single guy I meet and that I’m not tied down or anything. I actually wish that there had been one more slow dance, I was kinda hoping on hooking up with that cute single blondie at my table #subpost anyways, I didn’t but maybe next party.
I’m actually really upset that I’m not up at the cottage getting shitfaced right now, fuckkkkkkk. I really need to get drunk and hook up with a hottie, it’s been waaaaaaay too long

Jesus I am such an idiot. I’m breaking up with him tomorrow before prom. And I have to sit with him at a table. Of people he doesn’t know. Fucking awesome. I shouldn’t have started this in the first place.

Omg, I’m actually freaking out right now. He told me that he liked me!!!!!!!!!! Not that I didn’t already know but still :P It was really cute, he was all nervous and adorable. And my fingers are actually shaky right now, I can barely type. He told me that he liked someone, so naturally I tried to narrow it down and when I finally got it down to someone in our bio class (There’s only three girls including me) he just said, “It’s you, I like you”. I bet my face turned the brightest shade of red when I told him that I liked him too. His smile when he heard was so fricken cute! Then he put his arm around me and said that I was still confusing. Oh and I kissed him on the cheek, right before I missed my stop lmao. Whatever, nothing can break this amazing mood I’m in today!

I hate not knowing how people feel about me. Alright, not just any people. Him, specifically. I want to text him, but it’s too late. I want to ask him to prom so badly its ridiculous. I actually want to ask him to prom more than I want to kiss him, and that’s saying something.
I just wish he would make a move already.

So today I spent the majority of the day messaging him and I managed to make him obsessed with my favorite band. Although I can’t tell whether he actually loves them as much as I do, or if he is just listening to them because they’ll remind him of me. To be honest, either way works for me :)
I also happened to set up a study date on Monday. I’ve never wanted a weekend to end as much as I do right now.
I know I’m going to be taking the bus with him Monday after school, and in debating whether or not to kiss him on the cheek before I get off the bus. I mean, I really want to, but what if I’m totally off and he doesn’t feel like I do.
But, then again, it’s almost impossible that he doesn’t feel the same way. Based on the past week anyways.

The past two days have probably been the best I’ve had in a long time. I can look at myself in the mirror, smiling like an idiot, and feel genuinely happy. I can’t even begin to explain it. He’s just so different. I always thought that I wanted something else, but I don’t. He makes my breath catch in my throat and my heart go insane. I’m falling for him fast. And I’m pretty sure he’s feeling the same way

Have you ever felt so happy that you can’t do anything without smiling like an idiot or screwing something up? Yeah I felt like that today, for a good two hours. I haven’t felt this happy, this optimistic about something since FL. And I’m loving every second of it. I know I’m not taking this too fast, at least I hope not. I really like where this is headed. I’m just hoping that I haven’t been reading you all wrong, that I’m totally off the charts on this one.

I haven’t felt like this in a really long time and I’m loving it. Please don’t spoil it.

I kind of wish you were here right now. I kind of want to see you. I kind of hope you feel the way I think you do. I kind of imagine us together.
I’m also kind of impulsive
I also kind of want to dance with you.

I just want to go to university and get away from away this drama. To only be in contact with the people I care about, no have to worry about fights or criticism of others. I guess that’s what’s holding me back from getting what I want.

I just want to fall in love. That’s all I want.